Parenting

There's something to be said about parenting... By no means is it remotely easy, I truly feel its one of the hardest jobs any adult can take on. Also, one of the most rewarding jobs ever. Honestly, parents deserve so much more appreciation. But, we are all content just to have a well mannered, respectful child. That is our "appreciation"!
It's one of the only jobs where love is your reasoning. Even discipline is performed out of pure love. How can soo much love be poured into just one child? Even parents with multiple children still manage to give each child what they need in terms of love.
Parenting is setting aside your own needs for the needs of your child. It's hurting just as much if not more when your child is hurting. It's wishing you could take their pain away by giving it to yourself. In some cases it's wishing your death over theirs (although this is something we hope never happens to anyone we know / care about) I know that if I'm ever faced with such horror I would pray for his life to be spared in exchange for mine. Parenting is a welcome sacrifice for our children, something we don't think twice about. Even if the child is not your own flesh and blood you can still have that bond with a child. I think Shawn is proof of that. What a wonderful man. He loves Cam unconditionally without ever being expected to. There's no doubt in my mind that he loves him just as much as I do. He's been in Cams life since just before Cam turned 1. As long as Cam can remember :)
I'm not gona lie, I've completely lost my train of thought.. I'm not even sure if I got my point across. Maybe it's time to put away blogger for now.
TTFN

This And That

What an interesting day yesterday was. I'm going to post a little update on my anxiety yesterday and confess to those of you who read, how "childish" hormones can make you feel. Obviously I was pretty upset at the time, now looking back I have to laugh just a little. Shawn came downstairs looking for me, comes in the room, lays down across the foot of the bed asking me what I'm doing.. This is where it gets interesting.. Instead of calmly telling him about how I felt with the mess like any adult would. I look at him, and I feel myself breaking down. I start to tell Shawn about how much anxiety I had over a stupid mess and I'm trying to hold myself together. Meanwhile, my lips quivering as I'm trying to speak without having a melt down and trying desperately to hold my tears back and BAM water works everywhere. I'm sure Shawn could not make out half of what I was saying because lets be honest here, I was an utter mess.haha. I gotta love my husband dearly though. I could tell in his eyes he felt so sorry for me and was completely understanding. But he couldn't help but laugh at me and say "oh dear, what are you going to do when baby gets here?" My reply was somewhere along the lines of either loose my mind entirely or hopefully the "mess anxiety" passes as soon as I'm too exhausted to care. It honestly is just too funny. Although I do not wish to repeat how I felt yesterday. Anyhow, after that we went and took Camron to spend the night at his dad's then went and did some grocery shopping. Somehow after that we just managed to be as lazy as you could imagine for the rest of the day. Which was nice and I suppose we should do that as much as possible till our little girl gets here. It's not very often we get the opportunity to just relax and pretend that the world doesn't exist besides just the two of us.

I was reading some posts the other day on the baby app on my phone and there was a big conversation about now that your pregnant what are some things that you will not take for granted once baby is born. I got thinking about this the past few days and I have some interesting things that I miss about not sharing my body (although I do love the fact that I'm pregnant and don't overly mind sharing)
1. Being able to get up off the couch unassisted.
2. Hearing my stomach growl in my abdomen and not my ribs. I never ever noticed this till last night. I have to say it's really unnerving to hear rumbling that close to your face when it used to rumble in your belly.
3. Being able to eat/drink in a semi-reclined position. I currently have to sit exactly upright or it feels as if my food/drink is just going to sit in my throat all day.
4. To not have my little invader dig her feet/hands/knees/elbows (whatever it is) push against my herniated belly button. She doesn't do it too often, but man alive does it ever hurt when she does. Pretty much stops you in your tracks and you stop breathing till she's done hurting you.
5. To have a normal belly button again. I'm sure the hernia doesn't help much but it's pretty amusing when you look down at your belly and the first thing your eye catches is BELLY BUTTON prodruding 3/4 of an inch past your belly.
6. Last but not least (although I'm sure I'll think of more) being able to eat/drink almost anything without heartburn. Water is even a struggle most of the time.

That's all I have for today.
Have a great day xoxo

Countdown Update:
Currently 30weeks 6days
215 days down, approx. 65 days to go

No Way!!

It's official, I'm developing kankles!! Looked down after my shower and my once very prominent ankle bone has gone into hiding. Guess that explains where all that xtra weight has gone.. Legs are most definitely more plump haha. Oh well, what can a girl do??

I've discovered lately that I'm not a fan of the changes going on. If you remember a while back I was nesting. Well the house has stayed relatively neat and tidy since that day. It only takes me about 15 mins to do random clutter control. Not to mention cam has been fantastic at cleaning up his toys the way mommy likes them done. I'll get to the point though. I'm laying in bed downstairs writing this because the mess of Shawn and Cam playing Legos and K'nex has given me the worst case of anxiety I've had in a really long time. So I'm hiding... I want them to have fun and I cannot be upstairs without the mess bugging me. I feel like a child hiding from angry parents haha pretty pathetic. I'm really hoping this clean anxiety doesn't get any worse after the baby comes. Hoping I can retrain my way of thinking at least a bit so I don't have a psychotic breakdown every time there's a mess. Keep your fingers crossed for me! <3

Friday The 13th

I'm not one to be superstitious, I generally believe we make our own luck in how we view life and the world around us. But I gotta say I had a crappy day to start off with! Thankfully it's getting better tho. That started by some wonderful woman ahead of me in drive-thru at Tim Hortons paid for my coffee! Yay what a great thing. Sure got me thinking though. I don't know this woman from a hole in the ground and I was very taken aback by her paying for my coffees. It's pretty sad once you start to think about it. We shouldn't be blown off our feet by someone being nice. In today's world that is the case. Everyone is always in such a hurry you will wait forever to back out into traffic because no one can spare the time to let you in. What happened to common curtesy?? Doesn't seem that long ago that people used to take the time to help you out. It's a rare and desired commodity that's for sure. Any how just food for thought..

Baby has been super active for the past few days! Seems I never get a break and I'm finding myself adjusting to suit her needs and not mine haha! Even in our belly we keep them in mind and what's best for them <3. I can't rest my right arm against my side without her pushing me away. I'm beginning to think she's getting crowded in there! Seems she has to fight me for every last cm of space :) poor thing. Kinda feel bad for her, almost anyways!! On the bright side her room is almost done. Just have a few small projects to do then it all needs to be put up. I will make sure to post pictures once done. I'm really proud of the outcome so far. Can not wait to see it all together. I figure if I get her room done now then when I'm done work I'll have more time to nest in the rest of the house and spend some more quality time with cam before his little life changes.

Today marks 5 more weeks of work! Yahoo!!!! The first 3 weeks I work 5 days ( mon - fri ) then the last two I only work 4 days a week (mon - thurs). Very exciting! The end is near! Cam should be starting soccer in 2-3 weeks as well. I'm pretty excited for that!
I think that's enough blogging for today
Have a good weekend :)

Nesting????

I'm not too sure if I was nesting yesterday or just finally ambitious. I can not believe everything that I accomplished yesterday!
I washed dishes
Emptied the dishwasher
Cleaned the kitchen (There was some major clutter going on)
Washed about 6 loads of laundry and put it all away
Washed all bedding and changed sheets
Cleaned off the headboard in our room
Emptied Camrons dresser and put all his clothes in his closet
Moved the dresser into babies room as its a change table and dresser
Cleaned Cams room as there was not one spot you could step without something being under foot
Cleaned out the closet in babies room
Packed away all my clothes that no longer fit
Moved one of our rocker/gliders into babies room from upstairs
Cleaned up the laundry room and made it WAY more organized. I'm currently kicking myself in the butt for not            taking before and after pictures. The transformation is amazing!
Cleaned the upstairs bathroom
Cleaned the downstairs bathroom and tub/shower stall
Tidied up my art supplies that were upstairs
Packed away clothes that don't fit cam anymore
Spray painted the letters for babies room
Cleaned the microwave
Cleaned the livingroom after the easter disaster
Then went for coffee with a good friend of mine Michelle. She stayed for dinner and we sat up and talked till about 11:30. I gotta say it was a pretty productive day yesterday. Now I just need to vacuum. Then I'm done. I feel pretty good about myself. Didn't even have to make dinner yesterday as I got it ready and in the slow cooker the night before and just turned it on in the morning. Then tonight we're having leftovers. Now that I look at that list there is no debate, I was most definitely nesting and not just energetic. Tomorrow I will be 29 weeks (only 11 more weeks to go). Currently sitting at 202 days down the hatch and 78 more to go.
Starting to get really excited. We're going to have a baby in our house once again. It sure has been a long time.

Hiccups!

Well it's official.. 28 weeks into my 2nd pregnancy and I finally felt baby hiccups for the first time. I've heard of women talking about them but never experienced them until last night. Kind of makes me wonder... Do babies in the womb get irritated with hiccups like they do out of the womb? There's a solid question that's up for debate. Sure makes me wonder. Shawn got to feel her hiccup as well, which is nice that he got to experience that with me.
Not much is new in our neck of the woods. We've just been putting away our days working and being parents. Camron's classroom is now a peanut free classroom. Which is really disappointing. Poor kid, he has a peanut butter and jam sandwich every day. I'm almost lost when it comes to making a sandwich for him. It sure makes me sad for him, that's for sure.
I can not believe how big Cam is getting. It just blows my mind. It feels like he's getting taller by the day. I'm so happy to watch him grow but I am also sad. He's still my baby boy and always will be. It's hard to accept the fact that time flies so quickly, before I know it he will be a teenager. He is doing really well with basic math in school but is struggling with sounding out words. So, that's my mission as a mommy to try and find a better way to help him learn to sound out a word. Wish me luck! :)
That's all I have for today. Hope everyone has a fantastic Easter weekend.