Boy?

I've been doing some research this morning. I'm pretty positive that were having a boy, although I'm going to wait until I have my gender scan to announce it to the world. I wanted a little boy again so bad! I have a lot of experience with boys from Camron. Changing diapers and what not, is so much easier with a little boy unlike little girls haha. At the same time I can't help but feel just a little bit disappointed. Although I was really wishing for a boy my hearts been slowly leaning against a girl. Either way a happy healthy baby is all we really truly need and desire. Still going to hold out another 5-6 weeks or so until I have my gender scan and know for sure. Until then I wont stop hoping for that little girl. If all else fails, maybe we will try again next year ;)
On the bright side Shawn finally told all his family so I'm able to broadcast it. Funny thing is, not I'm nervous to tell the world haha

Out, Out, Out and Away!!

No baby bump yet. But man alive do I ever bloat like a blow fish. By the time I'm finished work at two its time to undo the button on my pants. By the time I get home its time for comfy clothes, like wonderful pyjamas. So nice to climb into something that isn't restricting at all. Especially when it comes to dinner time. It's almost as though I can feel my stomach expanding. Which isn't always pleasant at all. Sometimes it can be super painful. At the same time it's really hard to pace my eating when I'm hungry. I bet eating slower would solve all my problems, but unfortunately for me I'm not that patient. Makes me wonder when I'm going to have a noticeable baby bump, also I'm a little concerned how much bigger I'll get with this pregnancy as compared to my pregnancy with Camron, only time will tell I guess..

Could It Be???

Could it be that my energy levels are returning to normal? I can't let myself believe it. I've been so exhausted for the past 3 months it was hard enough to find energy to do even the smallest of things. It seems as though the past few days I've been getting my energy back! Very exciting! I was actually able to clean the kitchen, do dishes, laundry, and vacuum last night. But here's the kicker.. I still had energy after. This makes me feel 10000 times better, if it wasn't for my wonderful husband the house would have fallen down around us. I'm serious, it was that bad. Here's to hoping my energy stays for the next 6 months. :)

Merry Christmas!

Well it's almost been two weeks since my last post. In that time I've been to my first prenatal dr. apt and we celebrated Christmas.
The first prenatal is pretty boring I must say. I'm going to be sent for an ultrasound at the hospital to make sure everything is developing properly sometime between 17 and 20 weeks. Then some where between 20 and 22 weeks I am going to be sent back to Dr. Bulterys OB/GYN to find out the sex of our little one. I've already posted about our new expected due date of June 26th. This scares me! June 26th this year is exactly 1 week from Cams birthday which is June 19th. I'm going to humor you with how many birthdays we have in June :)
May 30th - My mom
June 5th - Shawns dad
June 8th or 9th - My bf Karas birthday (sorry hunny I'm having a blonde moment <3)
June 15th - Me, I'll be 24... What? OMG where did the last 3 years go!!!
June 18th - Shawns best friend James
June 19th - Camron and my bf Khori
Fathers Day sometime around in there
Then last but not least our newest addition either born end of June or early July. Whenever he/she figures they are ready to come out.
I know i'm missing someone too. Scary right? Do you understand my anxiety about having a baby around that time?

Anyhow, Lets ignore that for now! I hope everyone had a Fantastic Xmas. As for us we got spoiled! Camron woke us up at 3:45 ( I was already wide awake and Shawn had to get up and let the dog out.) So needless to say by 4:00am gifts were being opened. Camron got so much Lego and Halo Lego it was absolutely ridiculous. Shawn and myself spent 3 hours each that morning building Lego. Then boxing day Shawn spent another 3-4 hours building a K'nex roller coaster and I spent another 2 hours building Lego. We all had a great Christmas and were most definitely ready for bed at 10 which is when we were finally done visiting and got Camron ready for bed. We are hoping everyone had a great Christmas and enjoyed time with family and friends.
My side of the family knows about our soon to be new addition and Shawn just has one more phone call to make. Hoping we can get it all out in the open tonight so it's no longer a secret.
Also today marks a special milestone. We are officially at 14 weeks which puts us in the 2nd Trimester. Hoping to regain my energy very soon here and I'm absolutely elated that risk of miscarriage is greatly reduced! Good news all around. Merry Christmas Everyone <3

Ultrasound results

Turns out we're a little farther along than expected. 12 weeks 2days. Everything looks normal and is right on track! Got to see and hear the heartbeat and watch baby kick around like a maniac. Pretty good day. New due date of June 26 2012. Was really hoping we wouldn't have another June baby but beggars can't be choosers right? All in all good news to report. Cams only question was if the dr told me wether it is a boy or girl haha. Pretty cute kid I have :)

The Smell Of Fear

It hit me like a ton of bricks on Monday. I am absolutely horrified at the age gap that's going to be between my kids. It's actually like a cloud of horror has been hovering above me. Not that I didn't realize the age gap would be huge. But now I fully realize this is going to be a huge struggle. Camron's had nothing but my attention since he was born and he will be 6 before he's a big brother. I'm scared for him. Scared that no matter how hard we try he wont feel loved by us. I'm scared his whole little world will be turned upside down. I'm even more horrified that he wont communicate with us when he's feeling left out etc. etc. Even tho it was our vow to make sure we each spend time away from home with him, without the baby so that he doesn't feel like he cant have fun with us or that he cant spend alone time with us. Babies change a lot of things. I know this experience will be different from the last. All I had to worry about before was weather I was ready to be a parent. I knew I would be the best parent I could be when all I had to worry about was myself and little Cam in my belly. I pretty much just needed to vent. Although I don't feel much better now..

On the bright side I have my first ultrasound today. I wish I was more excited but I'm having a really hard time getting myself there. Shawn will miss it because he is out of town and I am going by myself. Not to mention I'm just scared to be a mother of two.. UGH! Somebody help me please.

Hopefully I have good news to report this afternoon to make up for this depressing post. Life isn't just up's its up's and downs.

Good News All Around!

Seems like this summer/fall was a productive time for friends. Shawn has two friends expecting. Barrett and Kylie as well as Amanda. Turns out Amanda's due date is July 27th. Pretty exciting. Our kids will be very close in age. At work there has been brand new babies everywhere. Its so hard not to stop and stare, because who doesnt love babies right? I've done fairly well tho. As far as I know, no one has any suspicion that were expecting and I'd like to keep it that way until after the new year.
Getting pretty excited for my ultrasound next week. Hoping Shawn will be able to make it! As he will be working, just not sure if he will be in town or not. Life's pretty good around here lately. We got news that the people who adopted our dog Jax cant keep him anymore, as they have to move. So we are taking him back. He was our responsibility to begin with and we let him down. Now we get another chance to prove ourselves good dog owners. I think Shawn is pretty excited. We're not telling Cam I think we will keep it a surprise. Cam misses him dearly and talks about him frequently.

Shawn got a job. He will start within the next week or two. I'm pretty excited for that. Shawn is too.

A little over 2 weeks and we will be announcing officially that we are expecting. Can't wait for Dec 24th :) Then I will be officially in my second trimester. Yay

But.. I best be going and getting Cam ready for school and myself ready for work. Car wont start itself and teeth wont brush themself hehe. Audios Amigos

Tired Again?

Just a little update this a.m. I AM EXHAUSTED! No night time nap for the last two nights, man alive can I feel it. 9 weeks 3 days today. The countdown to my first ultrasound is on and fast approaching. 9 more days. Then I start my shift at work today and unfortunetly its 6 days of work this week :( boo! But on the bright side I am on a 4 day shift next week with Thursday off for cams first xmas concert. Exciting :)

Yawn

 I am really getting sick and tired of being tired. haha seriously though. Sometimes it just seems I can hardly make it through the day. Its not even three and I can barely keep my eyes open and my body keeps screaming at me to take a nap. Doesn't my body understand that I have a ton of things I would like to do? The same things are on my to do list for over a week it seems. If it wasn't for Shawn being home so much, Cam and I would live in a war zone. I blame it on not having a nap after Cam went to bed last night. 8 hours a night should energize me but no, I need at least 10. Nothing is more aggrivating than feeling useless.

On the bright side, I'll be 9 weeks tomorrow. That means only three more weeks until I'm in my second trimester. I am praying that by then I start to feel like myself again.

Busy December

Its official. Got my very first ultrasound booked for Dec 14, then my 1st prenatal appointment is booked for Dec 21st! Very exciting, before I know it I will finally be able to see my little baby. Can not wait to hear the heart beat! Very hopeful that my hubby will be able to be there for it as well.

I've gotten very lucky and am having my ultrasound done by the OB/GYN who took care of me my whole pregnancy with Cam. What will the ultrasound tell us? Well its basically just going to look and make sure everything is working properly with babe i.e. heartbeat. As well as tell us how many babies are hanging out down there. Hopefully only 1 but twins do run in the family. Also, the u/s will tell us approx how far along we are and confirm the due date which is July 7th 2012 according to my last period. All very exciting! Unfortunately we will not be able to determine the sex at that point. Our little babies genitalia wont quite be visible by then we will have to wait until approx 20 weeks to find that out.

The 1st prenatal appointment well... its been a while since I've had one of those. About 6 years, can you believe it? I do remember that they send you for blood testing. About 5 viles to be exact, Yuck! Not really looking forward to that. Then he will go over the ultrasound results with me and a few other things. But my memory fails me a bit to be honest.

Then as far as we know Dec 24th will put us into the 2nd trimester which will greatly decrease our risk of miscarriage. Really looking forward to December! Who wouldn't be.

As for me. I am exhausted. I can not wait to be in the second trimester when I am supposed to get my energy back. I keep making the mistake of lying down then I'm so exhausted I cant keep my eyes open even though I want to wake up. That's really an uncomfortable feeling for me. Wake up for 2 seconds, think "I need to get up" but am unable to. Not cool!

That's pretty much all I have today though.
TTFN

Why am I so excited for this pregnancy?

2 posts in one day..  I must be sick haha kidding. Just had a super good idea and I cant wait till tomorrow! Chances are I'll forget (shhhh... don't tell anyone! silly pregnancy brain)

The big question is.. Drum roll please... Why am I so excited for this pregnancy? Well, for those of you who knew me while I was preggers with my first child you could probably figure it out right away. For those of you who didn't know me well, I'll fill you in :)

I got pregnant with my son at 17, no contact with the dad, lived with my parents etc etc. I never had a significant other that I could share everything with. Now I have my wonderful husband Shawn. I am so excited to share baby's kicks with him and have him be a part of the whole experience. Not only for me, but for him as well. This will be his first pregnancy, as Shawn and I got together just before Cam turned 1. So not only will this be his first pregnancy but will be his first experience with a new born child. Pretty exciting for both of us I'd say. I can not wait to see that bond between him and our child. Just thinking about it overjoys me to the point of tears. How could I get so lucky? Not only do I have a wonderful husband but a husband who treated my child as his own pretty much from the start. I am one lucky lady! And I have one lucky son :)

So far Shawn has been incredible. Its so nice to have the support there when I need it. When my back hurts he gives me the best back rubs ever! I'm never gona let this man out of my sight. Whahaha. Not only does he give great back rubs but he puts up with me being sleepy and emotional and cranky and any given moment. Also makes me get out of the house which is good cause I would stay here forever and not go anywhere if I had the choice.

All and all I am super excited to not be alone in this pregnancy. Its a pretty fantastic feeling knowing you have someone beside you every step of the way, not having to wonder how long your going to be alone for. I am really able to be super excited about this baby.

I forgot to put in the last post our due date. July 7th, 2012. I have an ultrasound in two weeks then my first prenatal appointment the week before Christmas. Can not wait to see little baby's heart beating away. Not to mention make sure there is only one baby in there. Twins runs in the family so always be prepared!

BIG NEWS!!!!

Well, I suppose I should just cut to the chase... Honestly I created this blog for a very special reason. Here's the Big News.. Are you ready? We're expecting! Yes, that's right baby number 2 is well in the making. We are currently sitting at 8 weeks 3 days. The next 24 days can not go by quick enough. Not that I don't want to savour every moment and every experience so far. I want to get to Dec 24! By then we will be 12 weeks pregnant and for the most part in the "safe zone". Isn't that a spectacular Christmas gift?

Now how exciting is that? We discovered I was pregnant on Oct 24th. Unfortunately I had to wait till after Shawn had left to southern Alberta for work before I realized.. "Hey my periods a week late!" 3 positive pregnancy tests later and we were in business. Yes, that's right! cells were multiplying and we are going to be parents again!

Lets have a quick recap of what has been going on with my body the past few weeks. As it is my intention to completely document this pregnancy. Not only for myself but for family far away to keep posted as well. Nothing too extraordinary going on to tell the truth. I'm exhausted! 10x more exhausted than I was with my first. Feels like I put my son to bed at 7:30 then passed out on the couch by 8. Then I wake up, go to bed, then sleep till morning. Pretty uneventful life I'd say. Please no one go near the girls! Nothing like being uncomfortable and in pain 24/7. Come on second trimester. I would like to feel good for a few months. Not that I should complain. I have been blessed to have absolutely no morning sickness. Now isn't that a blessing in disguise? Now lets talk shortness of breath. Its actually pretty interesting why I "seem" so out of shape. Even walking up a flight of stairs exhausts me. Here's the reason why, did you know that my body has created 50% more blood? Crazy right? All this extra blood is my bodies way of helping my uterus grow as well as carry more oxygen and nutrients to my baby. More blood also means my heart is pumping harder and blood vessels are dialating faster causing shortness of breath. Kind of interesting right?

Lets also do a quick recap on baby! This amazing little person has developed from just a few cells to an embryo and now a fetus! The heart has developed and is pumping blood, most internal organs are either developing or being developed, fingers and toes are no longer webbed. Amazing what happens in just a few weeks and that's only part of the development that has happened so far. At this stage baby is about the size of a green olive. Pretty tiny, but did you know that your baby wont even weigh in at 1 lb until approx 20 weeks? So many interesting facts.

Well I'd say were all up to date now. Lets see what tomorrow will bring.

First Of Many To Come

First Blog Post

..Oh no what have I gotten myself into. Haha. Love it when your mind draws a blank, well I guess practice makes perfect and I will get used to using my blog. I'd look at it like an online diary but lets be serious folks, I never was big on writing in a diary.

So I guess the big question is: Why am I blogging?

  Well to be honest, why not? This has got to be one of the best ways to discover yourself, let yourself become loose and free. Get things off your chest. I have always been better at writing out my thoughts and feelings than I have been at expressing them. I am starting this blog so I can look back when I'm old, grey and forgetful and remember what a roller coaster my life was. Or when I think I'm having a bad day I can look back and remember. "Hey remember that time Camron nearly broke my nose while I was changing his diaper?" That kind of thing. 

  Also, (we best not forget) let family from far away know what's going on in our lives and possibly count their lucky stars that they are no where near us. Haha!

 Lets raise our glasses in a toast. Here's to the start of my blog. May it bring years of laughter and tears, good times as well as the bad. Lets embrace it. After all isn't that what life is about?

This is Ashley Signing Off!

Good Day Folks