My Dear Baby Colby

To my sweet baby Colby
  I know you were not my child, but I love you as if you were. I will always love you more than you may ever know. The days are getting just a bit easier now, but I feel as if you took part of me up to heaven with you. I hope that part of me that you took helps keep you safe and warm. I miss you with all my heart. And I hope your watching over your mom right now. I know she needs you now more than ever. xoxo

A Sad Day In Our Household

We got some of the worst news yesterday we could have ever received. My best friends baby passed away yesterday afternoon at the innocent age 4 months. Just before we found out Shawn and I were talking about baby Colby. I was saying how much I missed her since they moved back to PG. How I felt as if Colby was my own child. I have never bonded with a baby (besides Camron) the way I bonded with her. We just had a special connection. Something I can't quite begin to describe. I feel as if I have lost my own child and can only imagine how Kelsey is feeling right now. This got me thinking about God. I've honestly never truly believed in a higher power. But when a child is taken so young I have to believe that she was needed somewhere else more than she was needed on earth. I believe Colby was destined for great things and would have grown up to do so much good in the world. I sat outside last night and looked up at the stars, this is what got me thinking about heaven. I feel like Colby is up there shining brighter than she ever did, watching over us all. Especially her mom Kelsey, Brother Chase, and all the friends and family she had in the world. I love you Colby, I don't ever want to have to say goodbye. You we're taken from us too soon. No parent should ever have to say goodbye to their child. I love you with all my heart and pray that you are watching over your mom right now. She needs you. Rest In Peace my love.

My Diaper Bag

I finished my diaper bag the other day. Pretty excited about it. It's most definitely not your "traditional" diaper bag but it's something I can use and enjoy using. I am very much in love with it! 💗

My Baby Creations

Here's a picture of the hats and headband I've made so far

Monthly Dr. Apt Update

Well, I had my doctors appointment yesterday.
So first of all lets add another 5.5 lbs to the scale haha. I am now weighing in at 125.5 and going up. Most definitely going to be about 140-150 by the time little one arrives. My doctor asked why I was so concerned about it.. I just very blatently said ``I`m lazy and I don`t want to have to work it off ``  Hows that for honesty. Actually to be honest I`m worried about the effect it will have on me closer to the end of the pregnancy because my feet and legs have never carried that much weight before. My goal is about 115-120 for my everyday average weight. I definitely wanted to gain some (to my non pregnant body) weight because lets face it. I could use an extra 5-10 lbs.
Secondly, it looks like I have a herniated belly button. Yay for me. That explains the ``belly button attacks`` I have been having. So chances are after baby is born I may have to go and get surgery to fix that. Which I imagine is just day surgery and super simple/easy. It's still going to be a pain in my butt! That wasn't exactly what I wanted to hear.
Then I've noticed the past couple days that I've been having braxton hicks contractions. Not very often, maybe one or two a day. I will take BH contractions over labour contractions any day haha. It's a strange feeling that can easily be mistaken for baby rolling around.
Anyhow I must be going, but I will post a picture a bit later of some baby items I've crocheted.
TTFN

What They Don't Tell You About Pregnancy

There's a few things no one ever bothers to tell you about pregnancy. Well I'm about to shed some light on a few of the random side effects.

Don't sneeze with a half full bladder. If by chance I sneeze chances are I am going to pee my pants at the same time. If there is ANYTHING in your bladder a few drops always end up sneaking out. Which isn't much but its definetly enough to make you super uncomfortable, especially if you are out and about or at work.

Baby likes to roll way down there. It's by far one of the strangest sensations. It's almost like she's rolling over your bowels and trust me it is uncomfortable. I can always tell when baby is putting pressure down there because I feel like im going literally crap my pants. Or let out one heck of a fart. It's one of those feelings that stops you in your tracks.

Everyone knows that babies like to kick your bladder while in the womb. Which is fine. But there's no better feeling than being kicked or punched in your cervix. It's instant pain. Trust me it's not fun at all.

Then there's good old fashioned exhaustion. It can hit you like a ton of bricks. One minute you feel fine the next your begging for a nap. Even if you have or have not been active or productive that day.

Then the dreaded belly button pain! OMG! Apparently your belly button is a weak spot in your stomach which leads to the odd belly button attack. I dread when those happen but am thankful that they don't last all day.

Even tho all of this seems negative, I am by no means trying to be. There are a lot of wonderful feelings and sensations that come with carrying a baby. All I know is I can not wait for my little girl to get here and hopefully have the natural birth I desire. Cherish every moment. Time fly's way too fast. Sit back, relax and enjoy. I know I'm going to look back and laugh about how often I had to change my tidy-whities due to sneezing and peeing my pants. :)

Well Hello Again

I can't believe it! It's been three weeks since my last post. I knew it had been a while but what I didn't know is it had been so long. It's been fairly busy around here with work, school, hormones, and lack of energy. I have been thinking about my blog a lot, I just havn't made the time to sit down and write anything.
Baby is doing good so far. She is moving A LOT! She's like the energy bunny on steroids. Over the last 3 weeks it felt like she was constantly kicking my in either my cervix, bladder, or my a$$. Haha no word of a lie, I gotta say that's pretty damn uncomfortable. It seemed like I only ever felt her on my left side and down REALLY low. But the last couple days she's moved up and I think she is no longer in the breach position. I'd have to predict sideways. I can usually feel her around my belly button with movement on the left and right side of my body. So it's nice that I'm getting a little break.
Seems like already she has a very strong bond with Camron. Which melts my heart. Every time Cam talks to her she starts moving around like crazy. Cam had to spend a night at my parents due to the teachers going on strike. My mom called me and Cam wanted to talk so I put him on speaker phone by my belly. The little miss went from dormant to making insane movements once she heard his voice. It was really cool, Shawn and I just sat listened and watched as my belly looked like it was doing the wave. There's just something about the way she responds to Camron that just melts my heart. I'm excited for her to get here. I think that Camron and her will have a great relationship from the start! :)
Camron is now officially on Spring Break and I am officially beginning my 10 days off. Which I have to say is just plain comforting. I'm so excited just to have some time to breathe and not have to dread going to work or come home crying because my co-worker decided it would be fun to be nasty to everyone living that day. It's just a big sigh of relief to tell you the truth.
The first half of my days off are pretty busy so far. Today I am hopefully going to go for coffee with a friend I've had forever but havn't spoke or heard from in the past 7 months. Which trust me is a good thing. I couldn't get her off my mind and she was in my dreams at least once a week. Lets just say the way it "ended" didn't quite add up and it was playing tricks on my mind. Then Sunday we have a birthday party for my girlfriends daughters first birthday. Then prenatal classes that night. Monday is a Grande Prairie trip with my mom to pick up some material and see if Sears there has the baby bathtub that I want. (figured I'd save myself shipping and the extra taxes if I could pick it up in GP) I am going to be making my own diaper bag, as I can not find one that I like without a hefty price tag. I am also going to make a diaper clutch out of the same material then my last project is a baby ring sling. Why pay up to $100 for this sling when I can make it for about $25? A sling is something I never had with Cam. While I was at work one day I saw this poor new mom with 2 kids, 1 baby in the car seat and a preschooler. She was picking up a ton of groceries and had no room to put them because she  had baby in the cart taking up a lot of room. So I figured I would learn from her misfortune and be prepared for grocery shopping with two children. Not to mention babies are usually calmer with being close to mom. Then my mom is going to make a baby quilt and bumper pads so she will need material for that as well. Then on Tuesday I have a doctors appointment. I think were just gonna cruz and try and have fun for the rest of my days off. We will see what happens...