Boy?

I've been doing some research this morning. I'm pretty positive that were having a boy, although I'm going to wait until I have my gender scan to announce it to the world. I wanted a little boy again so bad! I have a lot of experience with boys from Camron. Changing diapers and what not, is so much easier with a little boy unlike little girls haha. At the same time I can't help but feel just a little bit disappointed. Although I was really wishing for a boy my hearts been slowly leaning against a girl. Either way a happy healthy baby is all we really truly need and desire. Still going to hold out another 5-6 weeks or so until I have my gender scan and know for sure. Until then I wont stop hoping for that little girl. If all else fails, maybe we will try again next year ;)
On the bright side Shawn finally told all his family so I'm able to broadcast it. Funny thing is, not I'm nervous to tell the world haha

Out, Out, Out and Away!!

No baby bump yet. But man alive do I ever bloat like a blow fish. By the time I'm finished work at two its time to undo the button on my pants. By the time I get home its time for comfy clothes, like wonderful pyjamas. So nice to climb into something that isn't restricting at all. Especially when it comes to dinner time. It's almost as though I can feel my stomach expanding. Which isn't always pleasant at all. Sometimes it can be super painful. At the same time it's really hard to pace my eating when I'm hungry. I bet eating slower would solve all my problems, but unfortunately for me I'm not that patient. Makes me wonder when I'm going to have a noticeable baby bump, also I'm a little concerned how much bigger I'll get with this pregnancy as compared to my pregnancy with Camron, only time will tell I guess..

Could It Be???

Could it be that my energy levels are returning to normal? I can't let myself believe it. I've been so exhausted for the past 3 months it was hard enough to find energy to do even the smallest of things. It seems as though the past few days I've been getting my energy back! Very exciting! I was actually able to clean the kitchen, do dishes, laundry, and vacuum last night. But here's the kicker.. I still had energy after. This makes me feel 10000 times better, if it wasn't for my wonderful husband the house would have fallen down around us. I'm serious, it was that bad. Here's to hoping my energy stays for the next 6 months. :)

Merry Christmas!

Well it's almost been two weeks since my last post. In that time I've been to my first prenatal dr. apt and we celebrated Christmas.
The first prenatal is pretty boring I must say. I'm going to be sent for an ultrasound at the hospital to make sure everything is developing properly sometime between 17 and 20 weeks. Then some where between 20 and 22 weeks I am going to be sent back to Dr. Bulterys OB/GYN to find out the sex of our little one. I've already posted about our new expected due date of June 26th. This scares me! June 26th this year is exactly 1 week from Cams birthday which is June 19th. I'm going to humor you with how many birthdays we have in June :)
May 30th - My mom
June 5th - Shawns dad
June 8th or 9th - My bf Karas birthday (sorry hunny I'm having a blonde moment <3)
June 15th - Me, I'll be 24... What? OMG where did the last 3 years go!!!
June 18th - Shawns best friend James
June 19th - Camron and my bf Khori
Fathers Day sometime around in there
Then last but not least our newest addition either born end of June or early July. Whenever he/she figures they are ready to come out.
I know i'm missing someone too. Scary right? Do you understand my anxiety about having a baby around that time?

Anyhow, Lets ignore that for now! I hope everyone had a Fantastic Xmas. As for us we got spoiled! Camron woke us up at 3:45 ( I was already wide awake and Shawn had to get up and let the dog out.) So needless to say by 4:00am gifts were being opened. Camron got so much Lego and Halo Lego it was absolutely ridiculous. Shawn and myself spent 3 hours each that morning building Lego. Then boxing day Shawn spent another 3-4 hours building a K'nex roller coaster and I spent another 2 hours building Lego. We all had a great Christmas and were most definitely ready for bed at 10 which is when we were finally done visiting and got Camron ready for bed. We are hoping everyone had a great Christmas and enjoyed time with family and friends.
My side of the family knows about our soon to be new addition and Shawn just has one more phone call to make. Hoping we can get it all out in the open tonight so it's no longer a secret.
Also today marks a special milestone. We are officially at 14 weeks which puts us in the 2nd Trimester. Hoping to regain my energy very soon here and I'm absolutely elated that risk of miscarriage is greatly reduced! Good news all around. Merry Christmas Everyone <3

Ultrasound results

Turns out we're a little farther along than expected. 12 weeks 2days. Everything looks normal and is right on track! Got to see and hear the heartbeat and watch baby kick around like a maniac. Pretty good day. New due date of June 26 2012. Was really hoping we wouldn't have another June baby but beggars can't be choosers right? All in all good news to report. Cams only question was if the dr told me wether it is a boy or girl haha. Pretty cute kid I have :)

The Smell Of Fear

It hit me like a ton of bricks on Monday. I am absolutely horrified at the age gap that's going to be between my kids. It's actually like a cloud of horror has been hovering above me. Not that I didn't realize the age gap would be huge. But now I fully realize this is going to be a huge struggle. Camron's had nothing but my attention since he was born and he will be 6 before he's a big brother. I'm scared for him. Scared that no matter how hard we try he wont feel loved by us. I'm scared his whole little world will be turned upside down. I'm even more horrified that he wont communicate with us when he's feeling left out etc. etc. Even tho it was our vow to make sure we each spend time away from home with him, without the baby so that he doesn't feel like he cant have fun with us or that he cant spend alone time with us. Babies change a lot of things. I know this experience will be different from the last. All I had to worry about before was weather I was ready to be a parent. I knew I would be the best parent I could be when all I had to worry about was myself and little Cam in my belly. I pretty much just needed to vent. Although I don't feel much better now..

On the bright side I have my first ultrasound today. I wish I was more excited but I'm having a really hard time getting myself there. Shawn will miss it because he is out of town and I am going by myself. Not to mention I'm just scared to be a mother of two.. UGH! Somebody help me please.

Hopefully I have good news to report this afternoon to make up for this depressing post. Life isn't just up's its up's and downs.

Good News All Around!

Seems like this summer/fall was a productive time for friends. Shawn has two friends expecting. Barrett and Kylie as well as Amanda. Turns out Amanda's due date is July 27th. Pretty exciting. Our kids will be very close in age. At work there has been brand new babies everywhere. Its so hard not to stop and stare, because who doesnt love babies right? I've done fairly well tho. As far as I know, no one has any suspicion that were expecting and I'd like to keep it that way until after the new year.
Getting pretty excited for my ultrasound next week. Hoping Shawn will be able to make it! As he will be working, just not sure if he will be in town or not. Life's pretty good around here lately. We got news that the people who adopted our dog Jax cant keep him anymore, as they have to move. So we are taking him back. He was our responsibility to begin with and we let him down. Now we get another chance to prove ourselves good dog owners. I think Shawn is pretty excited. We're not telling Cam I think we will keep it a surprise. Cam misses him dearly and talks about him frequently.

Shawn got a job. He will start within the next week or two. I'm pretty excited for that. Shawn is too.

A little over 2 weeks and we will be announcing officially that we are expecting. Can't wait for Dec 24th :) Then I will be officially in my second trimester. Yay

But.. I best be going and getting Cam ready for school and myself ready for work. Car wont start itself and teeth wont brush themself hehe. Audios Amigos

Tired Again?

Just a little update this a.m. I AM EXHAUSTED! No night time nap for the last two nights, man alive can I feel it. 9 weeks 3 days today. The countdown to my first ultrasound is on and fast approaching. 9 more days. Then I start my shift at work today and unfortunetly its 6 days of work this week :( boo! But on the bright side I am on a 4 day shift next week with Thursday off for cams first xmas concert. Exciting :)

Yawn

 I am really getting sick and tired of being tired. haha seriously though. Sometimes it just seems I can hardly make it through the day. Its not even three and I can barely keep my eyes open and my body keeps screaming at me to take a nap. Doesn't my body understand that I have a ton of things I would like to do? The same things are on my to do list for over a week it seems. If it wasn't for Shawn being home so much, Cam and I would live in a war zone. I blame it on not having a nap after Cam went to bed last night. 8 hours a night should energize me but no, I need at least 10. Nothing is more aggrivating than feeling useless.

On the bright side, I'll be 9 weeks tomorrow. That means only three more weeks until I'm in my second trimester. I am praying that by then I start to feel like myself again.